Enter Inner Me

I Feel like my mortality is wearing off, i feel like a machine this morning i heard my life change yesterday, i feel clean. i love the gym, im ready to quit smoking pot, ahhhh i feel like i could destroy a contenent... you should feel this

Get Back here with my mind

Instead Braziers continued raining from the rooftop, im troubled this snake will not stop singing to me.
whats the plan of action?!
*plan of action, this calls for distraction,
so show em what you packin, lets un sheath the sheath'd
we in the jungle baby, surrounded by weed
*
He just droned on about the stration in the station and how i couldnt understand it was too complicated,
the silence suffocated us, but he shut up
FINALLY!

Work has been slow i havent been paying my bills, thats stressful... but what exactly can they do take away my Bo Jackson Action figures. my new phone that i needed so badly, i really needed it though.

on top of that i have develpoed feelings for someone i use to fuck that i will again fuck and im in a strange mood. the kinda strange that you miss your ex. i know shes fucking crazy but she has stopped drinking because she wants me in her life she even told me she'd be straight for me... i wish i knew how to exploit this power i have on the heart, i would abuse it, no lie

fish is the only person to tell me i fucked up
fish is the only person to agree with me that i fucked up

did i fuck up

so i never got to see my friends, part of me loved her more she was better to me she stopped me
things are never perfect in relationships maybe thats why jesus chose to be single
morals are a sham
most morals are a sham

im gonna go find a second job i dont care if its for minimum wage i will find one something enjoyable also im gonna take a beginers art class next semester im gonna put these characters and idea to pencil. you can go with me if you want i know your reading this

my mood today is terrible

maybe its the giving of thanks that overwellms me

maybe i need to hustle some money together i want out of this box and into another im moving i wont wait another month

one mo gin

Justin: "how long does it take to make a dvd"
Me:"like an hour, hour ande a half"
Justin:"what do you use??? Magic?" >Dvd burning software<
Me:"no? i just burn them"

hahaha

Caught a grip

5 shower later the scent of shame and smut has left my skin and hair, im back from Vegas... i hate it there, no matter how much fun i have, i just cant stand the stale taste in the air evertime i cross state line its there lingering.

Act your age not your shoe size baby
My finger fucking hurts it looks disgusting like someone took a bite out of it
but thats what happened, unholy british people

im sending you the link on AIm right now hang on
The Painting is bitchen, everyone that sees it loves it
Almost as much as i love having you in my life...
When we hang out i feel like im Fitting in with the in crowd

i felt prehistoric after trying to work on kurts car today
nothing got done
at all

but we did learn that if you search youtube for any of the following you will laugh your ass off

Fat kid falling on trampoline
guy knocks out girlfriend
and ofcourse ..... ghostride the whip gone wrong
oh and hornblasters

im supposed to go run at the gym but i think im to unmotivated to find my membership i kinda just wanna shower again but i need this something, happened this weekend my brain clicked on and i awoke... i dont know where ive been but it hasnt been horrible

quite the adventure, we can break the smile on your face with just a whisper in your ear. i met someone this weekend someone i wouldnt consider twice but i did i stayed with her till 850 in the morning... i was trashed it was awful but yet i wanted to stay by your side... i find sexual attraction in fascination, she fascinated me... her eyes and name were beautfiul the gap in her teeth was not, someone had painted a picaso and attached a hitler mustache, but i've chosen to stay friends with her... my selfish reasoning, i wanna see how she takes dick. yeah she might be white trash but i wanna ravage her like she's royalty.

oh how i hate the air there

Sex Playlist

I'm A Flirt Remix
Love to Luv U
Thoia Thoing (Remix)
Bounce
Get It Shawty
Ayo Tecnology
Party Like A Rock Star
Elevator

bomb head tonight thank you now your off to your next bf's... seee you sunday

A Dime if you tell me that you love me

Long weekend i was exhausted with my repeated attempts to get out of bed this morning. i felt like i was rising up out of a coffin only it was more of getting the momentium to roll out of bed. 

i watched the dodgers shut out the diamondbacks on friday night from field level, nothing better than amazing seats for free thank you Roxanne, Ive never been able to generalize why i am in love with you but i am you faciante me and in return i adore you and your Amazing Smile.

So i got to wash your car with you and you made me a shake before i left, i love the look in your eyes and the smile on your face when you talk about Russel Martin, the giddieness makes me laugh! 

the drive to san diego wasnt half bad, Nate and I crowded the car with the sounds of the distillers, rancid, Transplants, The Unseen, and other great Gangster Rap Allstars. We Land in San Diego

Well we Park at the hotel hotbox the Car. Mom picks up on the scent as soon as we enter the hotel room, She glad that i havent been drinking, Ive been trying to clean up this drinking problem, Ive spilt it down my soul but this weekend showed much improvment. saturday night we went to the fish market walket around all the little shops and ate dinner! fresh Sushi, and Clam Chowder... good stuff, im stuft...

We get back to the hotel its time for the old people to sleep nate and i adventure onward not so much of an adventure we find the movie theatre and get baked and watch Tropic Thunder, Funny ass movie even better stoned!

Sunday!!!! GO Chargers... Victor and Mom got Endzone seats for the four of us! Awesome Game, the couple behind us must have been drunk cuz the guy was confussed when his date was running her fingers through Nates hair! and my mom was upset when she started hitting on victor and telling him he had a naughty name lmao the game was great came down to the last 2 seconds... Chargers lost Immediatly Fights start. So Funny! 

So We manage to get onto the tram surprizingly fast they pack us in like sardines, and ofcourse the fucking thing breaks down! we walk like a mile or 2... the tram is fixed and we get back on, Nate and I thank the parents and half parent and depart, we get home Smoke more and yeah here i am writing this...

are we under attack

Salamandar im down... i cant see anything! or can i see everything? Living is suicide pump out of the speakers

thank you for the song its truly special

i enjoy this feeling

standup makes me laugh but im still bored